The Big Hep C Scare

One of those things that happen to me. I got a call after I got home from my surgery that the doctor had cut himself while doing my surgery and would I come back in for blood tests. I went back and the next day Dr. Rosman's nurse called and told me that I had tested positive for Hep C antibodies. I asked how that could be, I don't shoot drugs etc. and she said it likely came from the hospital. I arranged to go in for tests to see if I have the building blocks of Hep C building up in my blood, hung up the phone, calmly told Jeremy and was looking for Kira's brush to do her hair and I just lost it, throwing things and kicking the cabinets, lasted about two minutes, and I was fine again. I had the blood drawn last Thursday and I was going to call for the results after taking the girls to school this morning. When I got my phone I noticed I'd missed a half dozen calls from the clinic so I called and was put on hold and I sat there waiting for someone to come on and tell me that life as it was was over. Dr. Rosman herself picked up the phone and she sounded as happy as she made me when she said the tests were negative!!!!!! I swear this was the longest weekend I have ever had to live through!!! And thank all of you who were praying for me, I think He must have heard because I knew my immune system wasn't going to put up a big fight on its own against anything.
I went to Family Works and signed up to be able to visit Jami and got to see her for a little while yesterday. She looks much better, has put on a little weight and is clear eyed. She readily admits to being strung out before going there now and I really hope she will succeed with this program but am worried still. I asked them for a success percentage rate for their program and no one knew it. Today Cheri told me they are too new to have a track record yet. Not the best news. Also, all of the other women there are much, much, younger than Jami and I couldn't shake the feeling that it would be so much better if I had found a program like this for her when it all first started. She is too used to doing whatever she has to do to be free again instead of trying to really get help and I worry that even if she is trying, old habits are very hard to break. Not just the drug habit but the habit of playing to get whatever she wants. This could be her last chance and I pray every minute that it will work but I am prepared to accept it and whatever the consequences are for her if it doesn't help her. She should be able to have Kira there with her by this weekend and that will tell every one more. Cheri is worried about the day care they will put Kira in, she says the kids going there have inch thick incident reports for being injured, hit, bitten, etc. while at that daycare!!!! A lot of this just makes me sick and Cheri is clearly the only one in the system who really cares about what will be best for Jami and Kira in the long run. The "system" remains so flawed it doesn't even deserve to be called a system!! It's just a mess of rules and laws and plans that go no where but spend the government money alloted to them.
Maybe next I will write about what I would do if I had the government funding they spend on problem families....

Four Days After Surgery

Better but still a pain in the eye. I'll be super glad when the healing is over.
Still no word from or about Jami. I hope she is doing well in there. I took a bunch of groceries up there for her when she got there but won't know if she needs more until I can have some contact with her. I think I took two weeks worth but she likely was very hungry. they provide one meal day at FW and expect them to have food stamps in place for the rest. Not sure if Jami has that yet although I know she applied. Cheri will be here today for Kirk's visit so maybe she will know something.
I accidentally stabbed myself in the finger yesterday to the bone. I was stupidly using a knife to try to open a sinus spray, I would have yelled at Jeremy for using a knife in that way! and am paying for it. It hurts like hell!!!!!
I picked up Jessalynn and Jaz last night. I've missed Jessalynn terribly while she was in OK with her father!!! I think she missed me, too, since she called me to come get her. And of course I couldn't get just her or Jaz would have had a fit and we love having both of them. Kira does, too. She gets bored without Jaz and then she is harder to take care of!!!! They are soooo sweet!!!!! I love how they cuddle the most. Jaz hangs on fr dear life and Kira just snuggles down in my lap rubbing her little face on me. I need to get Riley over her as soon as I am a little better. He is starting to love being with Grandma, too, and is a real sweetie himself. He looks soooo much like Robby did!!!
All for now. Trouble makers go to hell!!!!! You know who you are!!!!!
See you all later!!!!

Day After Surgery

It is finally over!!! I had my eye surgery yesterday morning. Waking up after was as bad as I expect and so was having to ride home with Jeremy driving after, but today it feels better than I dared hope it would. I still need a little percocet but I expect Iwon't need it beyond this weekend if that long. And I already don't see double anymore, even with the swelling the eye is open more.
The doctor called after I got home and said that he had cut himself working on my eye and that we both had to have bloodwork done right away. I went back to the hospital for it and he got the results right away, must be a perk of being a doctor because I have to wait days to get bloodwork results!! We are both disease free.
Jami checked into Family Works Monday. Right away they moved her to Campus for Hope for drug detox but she was returned to FW after three days there.
Oh, a note for someone who tried to stir up trouble over this blog between Jami and me. Your ignorance of the best things for Jami has always caused more harm than good and you will never get what you hope for from your useless interference.
Wow, I worded that much nicer than I thought I could.
Now time to sit around and heal.
See you all later!

Long Week

Summer school started Tuesday. I also took the babies and myself to the doctor. We all have bronchitis and a few ear infections, got antibiotics, getting better. Jaz had to be nebulized pretty often at first but is better now, only have to treat her a few times a day.
I got the kids to school late most days this week. I still feel pretty rough and am worried because I have to pass a physical Monday to be able to have my surgery next Friday. I got the paper work in the mail about the eye surgery, wish I hadn't read about it, it sounds like it is going to be horrible, but I'm this close, I am doing it if I pass that physical.
My family is running me ragged. I don't know how to protect myself from it but maybe I need to learn.