Tuesday, June 21, 2022

New Household Dynamic

 Lindsey moving here has worked better than I even dared hope. We were all nervous,  it's been so long and we didn't know how changed we might find her or her us. 

Then it was like she had always been here.  Plus she seemed to have a positive effect on the house in general. Not to mention having her to help take care of me,  take over most of the driving. 

If she can help me until I can get better I should b able to help her as she becomes more pregnant and needs help. 

Jami is in jail and planning to return to the new/old love of her life who None of us like. 

I don't even know that Jami could successfully be a part of this household again Without Mike. 

I Love Jami. I want sun and rainbows and amazing things for her. She won't find any of that with Mike. I doubt she could even find it here, maybe because she doesn't seem to b looking for it. She appears to always be seeking Death. 

Which is all to easy to find.

Back to us. This household Can Work. 

Lindsey is very much the key to that and I think that Knowing that and Feeling her purpose will make her grow even more into what this family Needs.

Tuesday, June 14, 2022

Lindsey for my birthday

Did I already write that Lindsey is with me?? And last night Hannah was here.  Such a flashback!!

Saturday, June 11, 2022

A Jessalynn Sighting

 Jessalynn and Brandon visited yesterday. I feel like I drink the sight of her with my eyes. I know I have never loved anyone any more than I love her. (OK, maybe a few) I know that the year without her I missed her more than I have ever missed anyone I ever lost, temporarily or permanently. 

 I know she will Never be Mine again. 

But I saw her yesterday