Saturday, April 10, 2021

Heartache

The pain of losing Jessalynn just doesn't lessen. My heart aches unbearably still, it feels like I can't breathe sometimes. I still run through it all over and over in my head all the time. It is as acute as any loss I have ever felt. Irreparable.  Like death of a loved one. Maybe worse. Death loss fades more with time. You can believe they are in a better place or still with you. This is just a gaping void. 
The only positive I see is that I cant possibly live much longer. We'll,  and there is that my favorite grandchild. Jenise would Never tell me I was doing Anything disgusting no matter what.  
Then this pain will end unless I go to hell. 
Hell would be an eternity of This.

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