I'm sitting. Can't walk today. Dr. Gold gave me an injection in my left knee Thursday. Felt better for a little bit. Maybe it's still better, just not very good.
I told Dr. Gold that I have been depressed feeling like i am losing my independence. He simply said "You definitely are" in that "accept this" tone he has.
Harsh acceptance.
I'm just realizing what arthritis means for me. I've known I was diagnosed with it and somehow thought it was an annoyance I would have to deal with.
When it Really Hit recently I was stunned at how Very painful it is!! Every joint in my body started screaming, not just when I move but even waking me all through the night.
Again. Adjusting to my New Reality.
It is a Beautiful Day. Sunny with a cool breeze.
I'm alone. Don't know where they are. Wishing I was with them!! when I should just be enjoying that I am out here on this beautiful day. Happy families everywhere.
I think I could walk over and look at the gorillas, or go in the rain forest. But then they will worry I'm not where they left me.
I think I'm going to let them worry a little.
I can't just sit here feeling sorry for myself!!
It will hurt to walk, I could end up in trouble, unable to get back.
Someone will help the crippled old lady.
I'm going to see the gorillas
NEXT DAY
I didnt make it to the gorillas. I started to walk there but realized it was downhill and I might not make it back up. So I started to head for the Lied Jungle when I saw the leaves moving in some bushes. I crept closer and noticed a group of female peacocks hiding there. I was happy to see some aninals!! I stood there watching them until I noticed Jeremy and the girls walking back.
So. I saw peacocks at the zoo. 🙂
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