Jessalynn, Brandon, Shy and Riley are here. Jeanette even stopped by last night.
I love they are here but wish I could enjoy it more!!
I've been sick. Covid, then strep, then a parafluenza, then the Wreck and then RSV with a respiratory infection. 2023 so far.
I saw Death during the last illness. Woke unable to breathe, took a while to think to use an inhaler. Swore I would stop smoking. Still smoking. Right now in fact. I hear Mom all the time "Your father didn't love us enough to stop smoking". Maybe he did. Maybe near death he saw how damaging he really was to us and just let go.
I get that.
I don't really understand how damaging I've been. I just know I have a family of damaged people and I am the common denominator.
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