Jeremy

 I still think about him a lot.  More than I want to.  But I believe that will lessen with time.  I miss him once in a while but the guy I miss is not the one we have lived with these last ten years.  If I miss him I miss the guy I met and immediately realize that I have been missing that guy for years.  I don't miss the guy who left here at all.  When I think of him I am relieved he is gone.  I do hate to think of him in pain or miserable but I really doubt he is.  Not any more than he was before he left and very likely he is probably happier.  I don't like that I had to make him hate me to make him leave.  It took at least ten years to get him to go!! and from the first time I told him to leave to the very last I sincerely believed it would be better for him than staying and being miserable and making everyone around him miserable.  But it is a lot like when someone dies here,  at least within my household.  They seem to not remember anything about how terrible he was and how much they all complained about him every single day.  Complained To Me.  I am so glad that is over!! but with this speak-no-evil-of-the-dead-attitude it's actually pretty nauseating to live around.  

Fare thee well.