Working It

 I thought about seeing how many times I could use Beatles song lyrics for titles like Greys...

We Can Work It Out. We'll be ironing out little details for a while here but it is working.  I'm trying to keep Jess's scheduled things in order and keep Jeanette from feeling too much like she Had To move home with Mom.  And,  of course,  trying to keep everyone happy with this.  Those are just 2 of the main points to consider. For me? I don't require much any more.  I'm pretty much happy as long as everyone else is.  I wish I had the energy and whatever it takes to just get my own room and belongings sorted here.  That is a huge part of What Needs Done.  But not only do I really hate doing it!, I get sidetracked constantly by immediate things that need done first.  And by a butterfly flitting by. Yea. Easily distracted in my old age.  And still stunned that I am in my old age!! I can't take any credit for me long survival, I shamefully haven't even stopped smoking!! and I'm Here. I eat junk food, don't "work out", and barely talky my medications correctly,  and I am still here.  "Meant To Be". I hear that a lot, believe it,  too. Not much else makes sense! Aneurysm, car crashes, tumors. Still Here. It must be to orchestrate the family.  To "control" them,  as Brandon humirously says. To keep them alive I say. Again, it would be so much easier if I could actually Control them!! 

Oh. Trying to work out something that seems impossible.  Jazz is asking me to take her to a BTS concert.  In Arlington, Texas, in August. I really want to do it for her!! It would be her 18th birthday present.  She NEVER asks me for anything and she certainly never asks to Do anything with me.  Not that I would be her first choice for this!! Probably just her only hope of getting to do it.  But CAN I do this?? Will I even still be alive in August? And able to walk into and sit thru a concert?? Let alone able to get us to Texas!! 

I want to do this.