Martha

 Jess  has said she feels life the Martha. In glad that I never told her to start doing all of the house work. She just started after I couldn't and then Jeremy wouldn't.  I'm grateful for it. She keeps the house looking fairly decent and prepares good meals.  In return I have her the running of this house.  Let her pretty much be the Boss which i guess also makes her the Martha.  Years ago when I was doing it all including laundry for sometimes 7 kids Jessica pretty much never helped.  And she trashed whatever space she had. The landlady had to hire someone to deodorize and clean Jessica's room at the yellow house.  All of the upstairs at the Meredith house was trashed except for Kiras room. Now I feel sorry for her sometimes when I hear her vacuuming at night or when she cleans the litter boxes every day making owning cats so my better! I seem to forget the years I did it all and then the years Jeremy barely did it while bitching about having to do the little he did at the top of his lungs.  If you walked through the Meredith house barefoot your feet would be black with  filth. Jami and Kirk did most of the trashing of the basement there but Jeremy didn't do much better.  The basement here was beautiful when we moved in.  It's an embarrassing eyesore most of the time now.  But socks don't get black walking without shoes in the house and the kitchen is always clean. Thank you, Jess! My room is terrible,  has been for months,  but I hope to fix it more now that I'm feeling a little better. And I'm trying to put in a garden.  This year I will profit more than I spend on it. Jess and Kira have always refused to eat anything I grow. They trust vegetables from the grocery store full of pesticides and handled by strangers,  often in Mexico,  more that they trust what I grow.  I'm going to force the issue this year. We are spending over a thousand a month on food now. Eggs are over $5 a dozen and everything had been outrageously expensive since Covid.  They will eat it or go hungry. I made laundry soap that would save us $30 a month and they refused to use it. It was more pure and effective than store bought.  It mostly got left when we moved here. I hope to make it again and make them use it.  They but a LOT of expensive unnecessary groceries.  Jess uses online recipes that complicate simple dishes like goulash and chili. Pot pies that are costly but delicious but I know the cheap way to do it is delicious too. I probably can't change these things but the financial situation might make it get better and growing vegetables will help.  I'm looking at getting chickens,  too. 

One thing about the"expense" of Jess's cooking: I was raised by the generation who survived the Great Depression, meaning I was taught to be extremely frugal,  probably excessively so.  They may need to know those things in this world some day but I don't want to make them learn it now if I don't have to.  And Jess's gnocchi if amazing and worth whatever it costs!!

Ok. Sleep now??