I lost all my music when I had the brain bleeds. I can't hear music in my head any more and couldn't play a single chord on the guitar. Until tonight. I was on YouTube and there was a guy playing a guitar and I saw a G chord and then said "I can do that!" I got out my guitar, tuned it, and PLAYED. At 1 am! I had to chop off the fingernails on my left hand and my fingers felt like they were bleeding after a little while but I CAN DO IT!!!!!!
YEA! "They" said I wouldn't get back lost information, that my brain died every where blood touched and the 3 bleeds took chunks of my memory, the ability to convert short term to long term memory, and music. I've been working on the memory issues, I play mind games to move things to long term memory that work about half the time so far but I haven't really worked to get music back. I sat at a keyboard one day and after about an hour my hands started playing "Long Long Ago" but I haven't had much time to try again. I was scared to get out my guitar. I figured I would just never play again but I just DID. I love it!! Can't believe I wasn't grieving more about losing it but I had just decided to be thankful to just survive an aneurysm and then 3 brain bleeds. I love the tone of the guitar. Love feeling the music vibrate through me. I have missed this So Much!!
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