Jeremy and I went shopping at Walmart on what will be one of my last splurges after getting my settlement. It wasn't a huge splurge as I got mostly things that were needed. Jeremy was very good about not saying anything about how much I spent on the kids. I got Jami some towels and things for her apartment and a few things Jess needed and shopped for little Robbie's first birthday. It is way different shopping for a little boy after all these girls! Toys aren't too hard at his age and I'll likely always be able to just watch what Jeremy is interested in and plays with in the toy section. Clothes are a different matter. I hated all of the little outfits I saw. They all looked goofy to me so I just got him some Bob the Builder and Finding Nemo pajamas.
We stopped at Jami's on the way home to drop off their things and visit a minute. They were stripping wire to sell. I thought Jami looked a bit rough, I know they had some kind of pills today. I didn't talk to her about the Methadone clinic again yet and I am just hoping that I can really afford it. The thing is that Kirk would need to go too for it to work which would make it about $750 a month!! Jeremy says they should be able to pay for methadone since they pay for their drugs which is a point that is very hard to argue with except they just won't have the same motivation somehow to get the methadone and I'm not even totally sure why but I just know it will be that way. Now when they start getting sick they are desperate and start collecting cans to sell and anything else they can think of until they can get a fix. I just can't see a junkie working that hard for Methadone somehow. Like their demons will tell them they deserve some heroin instead since they worked so hard or the mind can think of hundreds of tricks to keep it's feel good addictions. I know this just from being addicted to cigarettes. I will likely end up paying for the Methadone for both of them if I at all can and if they sound serious although again you'd think they would get the money themselves if they were serious. What a vicious almost circle!!!
We stopped at Jami's on the way home to drop off their things and visit a minute. They were stripping wire to sell. I thought Jami looked a bit rough, I know they had some kind of pills today. I didn't talk to her about the Methadone clinic again yet and I am just hoping that I can really afford it. The thing is that Kirk would need to go too for it to work which would make it about $750 a month!! Jeremy says they should be able to pay for methadone since they pay for their drugs which is a point that is very hard to argue with except they just won't have the same motivation somehow to get the methadone and I'm not even totally sure why but I just know it will be that way. Now when they start getting sick they are desperate and start collecting cans to sell and anything else they can think of until they can get a fix. I just can't see a junkie working that hard for Methadone somehow. Like their demons will tell them they deserve some heroin instead since they worked so hard or the mind can think of hundreds of tricks to keep it's feel good addictions. I know this just from being addicted to cigarettes. I will likely end up paying for the Methadone for both of them if I at all can and if they sound serious although again you'd think they would get the money themselves if they were serious. What a vicious almost circle!!!
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