I do feel betrayed by my body, I wonder if all old people feel this way. I was always so strong, I felt capable of anything and everything. Almost any question of Can you I would answer Yes.
Struggling to get a garden planted. My house is a wreck as always because i cant keep it up. But i want to cling to this love of mine, growing things, so badly that i walk through the cluttered house and face the sun and earth. And it just kicks my ass. I got the soil turned and ready with Jeremy's help yesterday but went out today to prepare to plant and was in too much pain to drag the soil into rows.
Yes, I'm older, older than my 61 years after always being young for my age. My crooked body betrays me.
I'm not ready to be immobile. To give up. I Will get a garden in one more year.
And maybe, just maybe, I'll figure out how to overcome this betrayal.
Or at least die trying.
I'm not at all finished with gardening or anything. In my head I still go hiking, chop down trees, fix cars, build things and rule my world.
I must Overcome.
If I planned to have a tombstone that's what it should say. She Overcame the Betrayal.
Struggling to get a garden planted. My house is a wreck as always because i cant keep it up. But i want to cling to this love of mine, growing things, so badly that i walk through the cluttered house and face the sun and earth. And it just kicks my ass. I got the soil turned and ready with Jeremy's help yesterday but went out today to prepare to plant and was in too much pain to drag the soil into rows.
Yes, I'm older, older than my 61 years after always being young for my age. My crooked body betrays me.
I'm not ready to be immobile. To give up. I Will get a garden in one more year.
And maybe, just maybe, I'll figure out how to overcome this betrayal.
Or at least die trying.
I'm not at all finished with gardening or anything. In my head I still go hiking, chop down trees, fix cars, build things and rule my world.
I must Overcome.
If I planned to have a tombstone that's what it should say. She Overcame the Betrayal.
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