I still handwrite journals although not nearly daily. I'm realizing that it is very unlikely that anyone will ever read them. Especially as my handwriting has deteriorated considerable these last few years. A lot would be illegible even if someone cared enough to try.
Even these likely will never be read even if I leave the website with the passwords for those I will leave behind.
Also, i have been thinking about the stories i have never written anywhere or told anyone. I don't know if they would be useful or mean anything to Anyone after I am gone. And there is a LOT I have never told about that I still remember. None of them are happy stories, but they could be things that could help someone to know.
I leave huge chunks out of my teen years out of stories, some of my childhood, and a smattering of things from my adult life. I'm thinking about putting some on this Blog somewhere. Wondering if there are still some I can't repeat. Last year I attempted to share one of those stories with Jessalynn and to my surprise and her dismay I couldnt go on after the first few words. I choked and tears came to my eyes and Jessalynn quickly changed the subject to save me.
God I love her so very, very, much!!!!
I have never expressed to my children or grandchildren that I desired them to grow up and be like me. I wanted them to learn from me and decide to be Better than me. Jessalynn has done this so amazingly. Yes, I believe I have had the opportunity and pleasure of being closer to than any other of my children and grandchildren. I knew we would have an amazing bond when she was just three but it has surpassed everything I ever dreamed of. My only regret with her is that I believe that she will be the most affected by my death. But, then again, she will be best prepared to handle and get over it
I reslly hope that is true!!
Even these likely will never be read even if I leave the website with the passwords for those I will leave behind.
Also, i have been thinking about the stories i have never written anywhere or told anyone. I don't know if they would be useful or mean anything to Anyone after I am gone. And there is a LOT I have never told about that I still remember. None of them are happy stories, but they could be things that could help someone to know.
I leave huge chunks out of my teen years out of stories, some of my childhood, and a smattering of things from my adult life. I'm thinking about putting some on this Blog somewhere. Wondering if there are still some I can't repeat. Last year I attempted to share one of those stories with Jessalynn and to my surprise and her dismay I couldnt go on after the first few words. I choked and tears came to my eyes and Jessalynn quickly changed the subject to save me.
God I love her so very, very, much!!!!
I have never expressed to my children or grandchildren that I desired them to grow up and be like me. I wanted them to learn from me and decide to be Better than me. Jessalynn has done this so amazingly. Yes, I believe I have had the opportunity and pleasure of being closer to than any other of my children and grandchildren. I knew we would have an amazing bond when she was just three but it has surpassed everything I ever dreamed of. My only regret with her is that I believe that she will be the most affected by my death. But, then again, she will be best prepared to handle and get over it
I reslly hope that is true!!
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