He left last night. He HAD to go, I've known that, been advised that, for years, but I'm me. Just couldn't throw in the towel. I do hate failure! I'm glad sometimes that my memory is going so fast, I can't look at my life and compare how many failures vs success, I don't remember enough of either! I just hope my whole life hasn't been a failure. I hope there is more than that to my legacy.
I was wondering how many of my goals in life were accomplished and realized that I can't even remember what they were! I'll see it crystal clear on Judgement Day. I guess I'll spend what I have left working to not end up in Hell for whatever I've done or not done. I don't even understand why Jeremy left the way he did. I tried to give him the house and the van he had the money to fix it and he absolutely refused, wanted his car. ? Maybe it was that the house came with the responsibility of taking care of the kids and Jess?? I understand very little of what he's done and said. Or maybe he just wanted the car because i wanted it.
It's just a sad story.
FOOTNOTE: He just wanted the car because I wanted it. He did want to stay and have me leave and now he is like a lost soul. He started texting me, sounds so weird!! Like he is definitely trying to be a different person but talks to me like I haven't met him. It is pitiful, would be if I had pity left for him!
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