The drawing board

 Ok. Seriously working on how to comfortably move Jeanette in here.  That will save us all.  Should Have been done last year. Instead I tried to give Dave and Jami a break and both are still unable to care for themselves but at least I stopped making Dave our problem.  No Clue why I let that go on so long.  It was not,  as Jami says he claims now, because I needed some kind of emotional tampon after Jeremy left.  I definitely Did Not need anyone with No Income to replace what Jeremy was contributing here for sure!! Yes, I did feel that I needed some kind of protection from the Hatefest towards me for telling Jeremy to leave (again, something he Thanks Me for now) (how are the Haters swallowing that?? I do wonder....)  I begged Dave to start pulling his weight but he just wouldn't/couldn't? or maybe thought I would just support him forever. Anyway,  I had Jami to protect me.  I had outside support from Jeanette and her kids and Jami was all I needed within this house.  Moved her in right away when I saw how the wind was blowing and that's a huge part of why she is Still Here.  I do worry how long I can keep on keeping her like this.  The meth use In The House alone should have put her out by now.  And there is No Discussing the issue because she just denies it even tho everyone can smell it and Everyone she has over is a Meth user. The constant mess - she might have more belongings than anyone else in this house.  I am the only one who might have more but I am throwing things away almost every day now.  I am still,  will always be grateful,  for how she took a stand for me! But that shouldn't mean that I let her walk all over me ever after.  Actual,  if she was Really Standing With Me,  she wouldn't be causing me harm.  

I will give Jeanette Free Reign to fix this household since I evidently don't have the back bone to stand up for myself and the kids here. She will be paying at least half of the bills here - something I have NEVER had!!!! (Well, not since Steve) Who knows?? I might even experience having "spending money" again before I die!!!!