Back in the ER

I left out a story,  in this journal,  and when speaking to doctors in the ER yesterday.  I hope it doesn't matter,  that I am wrong about what is going on. When I called Dr. Jeffrey tiff morning and told her the story she told me to get back to the ER and tell them this story. 

Friday Jami told me that Mike Knowles was hired to clear out a vacated house and that it was full of good things, maybe even a working electric stove for Jess. (Ours barely works) Riley was over after school and heard us talking and wanted to go with.  We went there and the place was in Much Worse shape than we were lead to believe! We still poked around a while,  mostly just looking at all the crap and the mystery of the house.  It looked like the last occupants had died or something.  There were family photo album's scattered in the rubbish.  A VHS player was hooked up indicating this place has been vacated many years ago. We noticed that our hands were filthy and when we blew out noises black crap came out.  We went to his house and washed up.  I told Riley to shower and wash the clothes he was wearing.

The next day my stomach hurt terrible.  Walking bent over crying terrible.  I adjusted to the pain over the next couple of days and when I slipped on the ramp I joked that at least my head now hurt so badly that I didn't notice the stomach pain. Then I started the vomiting,  in the front yard! and Jenise came over when she heard of me falling twice and hitting my head.  She sat with me in my room for a couple of hours and I thought I was feeling better so she went home.

That night I started running fever,  shivering, freezing. By morning I was hallucinating and couldn't walk without assistance.  Jenise took me to the ER. She had to do most of the talking and told them about the fall and then being sick. I was pretty surprised that they checked the fall and the fever- ERs famously treat the most emergent ailment and send you home.  

But we left out the story of that house.   I don't think I was able to really fit it into the picture until last night after I started coughing up blood. 

When I told Jami about the black stuff in our noses she was horrified.  Said she meant to warn us to wear masks and gloves.  That house has sat vacant for over 15 years.  Mce, rats, raccoons and God knows what else have lived and died there.  There is a dead raccoon in a closet! Also, Jami indicated that she might not have been truthful about Mike being hired to clean that house out. She said that there are vacated homes all over the place that people help themselves to.  I went back there with Jami wearing masks and gloves and saw that she was really scared of anyone seeing us there.  That was my first clue.  I'm horrified that I not only possibly exposed Riley to deadly diseases,  I had him trespassing with me while he is on probation for trespassing!!! The fact that I was trespassing is very minor in comparison to everything else. 

So, I'm waiting in the ER. I looked at the possible things that being in that house could have done to us and Phillip, who is an exterminator,  knew even more than I had found about it.  

This one might kill me.  But that has been said So Many times that it would be hard to believe.  Dr. Gold has told me "This is it" twice and other doctors have told me to "make my arrangements" at least three times. 

Coughing up blood is a little bit scary.  I saw the admitting receptionist start rushing my admission as soon as I disclosed that.  

Not Good.