Why can't I do anything about it?? I keep planning to, I even start to many, many times. WHY CAN'T I JUST DO IT. I can dig a 10 X 4 garden in a day. I can weed and care for my gardens All Day. But I can't clean my own room. And, Yes, I WANT it clean. LOVE the way a clean room feels. A clean bed. Dang. I love the way a clean Me feels. Ok. That one I understand a little. Bathing is pretty hugely exhausting. The whole OCD have-to-do-it-in-the-right-order, the-Right-Way thing goes into play. WAIT. Maybe That IS the problem. The big OCD thing. It doesn't effect gardening/yard work so much because I don't really have a Set Way to do those things. I'm usually following instructions I find online or just figuring it out as I go. Can that really be a big part of this???? I try to take a "quick" shower but always get at least a little caught up in Having To Do at least some of it the Right Way. A quick shower is usually doing the same things but much faster, more exhausting to do!! I can get away with not shaving but that is all I can give up. I HAVE to wash my face twice. HAVE to exfoliate. HAVE TO ...
Can I just try to Willy Nilly clean my room?? I really get caught up in feeling like every little thing has to be Organized. I find a spool of thread, remember where other sewing things are, realize I have 3 (or 5) disorganized sewing boxes, and start organizing and consolidating sewing stuff. Oh and then there is the memory/total scatter brain thing. I see something I need to sew. Stop to sew it (real quick) and put something in the TV while I sew. Then I go on to sew something else real quick. The lighting is terrible so I dig out my lamp but it isn't working so I start to fix it. Then I go to the bath room or to get a drink and realize I forgot to feed and take care of my pets. I take Gabby out back and see Japanese Beatles attacking my garden. !!!! I forget everything and start to battle them. Then it's dinner time. Dark. I'm wore out. I'll work on my room tomorrow...........
Rinse andRepeat.
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