Life is settling down a little bit. Jessica is only working three days a week now until the end of the month when she will go on maternity leave. That lightened the driving load a little bit. :-) Mornings are the hardest with having to get Jami and Kirk to the Methadone Clinic and also getting Jessalynn to school on time.
I got to talk to Lindsey twice last weekend and it was absolutely wonderful to talk to her again. She is living in a girl's home and was home for a weekend visit. I want her to come here to live so very, very, much!!! I don't believe she is "crazy" or uncontrollable. I think she is just very unhappy there. She is left home with Jennylu while John works most of the time and Jennylu is afraid of her at best and, I'm sure, more worried about how her own two children in the home are than how Lindsey feels or what she needs to be happy. John knows he has a bad situation there but is too pigheaded, proud, and stubborn, with a lot of grudges against me, to let Lindsey come here even though it would be the best thing for her. Jami and I were talking today about the things he has done to me personally in the past that were just outrageous. The one that made me the most upset at the time was when he, Jami and I had to go to a bank to get something notorized and he pulled the bank door shut behind him right in my face going in. I was so pissed I thought I was going to have a heart attack in the bank, shaking from head to toe. Then, of course, there is the time he took a friend of his sister's marijuana contaminated pee to the doctor and said that it was Lindsey's and that she had been at my home and come to visit him smelling like weed. Four squad cars pulled up around my place and tore my home apart and didn't find a trace of marijuana or anything to do with it so then he called my apartment manager and told them I had Jami living there, she was staying with me, and we were evicted for having too many people in the apartment since they were already upset about the police raid. And there are totally unspeakable things he did to Jami after they separated, from stealing money from her to sexually assaulting and degrading her. It is hard to believe that he spawned such an incredible daughter!! But Lindsey is incredible. And she is writing incredible poetry these days just like her grandma did at her age. :-)
Fall is finally here and I very much welcome the cooler days although I feel a little dread knowing the winter to come. How I wish I had raised my girls in the south!! But they are here so I am, too.
I got to talk to Lindsey twice last weekend and it was absolutely wonderful to talk to her again. She is living in a girl's home and was home for a weekend visit. I want her to come here to live so very, very, much!!! I don't believe she is "crazy" or uncontrollable. I think she is just very unhappy there. She is left home with Jennylu while John works most of the time and Jennylu is afraid of her at best and, I'm sure, more worried about how her own two children in the home are than how Lindsey feels or what she needs to be happy. John knows he has a bad situation there but is too pigheaded, proud, and stubborn, with a lot of grudges against me, to let Lindsey come here even though it would be the best thing for her. Jami and I were talking today about the things he has done to me personally in the past that were just outrageous. The one that made me the most upset at the time was when he, Jami and I had to go to a bank to get something notorized and he pulled the bank door shut behind him right in my face going in. I was so pissed I thought I was going to have a heart attack in the bank, shaking from head to toe. Then, of course, there is the time he took a friend of his sister's marijuana contaminated pee to the doctor and said that it was Lindsey's and that she had been at my home and come to visit him smelling like weed. Four squad cars pulled up around my place and tore my home apart and didn't find a trace of marijuana or anything to do with it so then he called my apartment manager and told them I had Jami living there, she was staying with me, and we were evicted for having too many people in the apartment since they were already upset about the police raid. And there are totally unspeakable things he did to Jami after they separated, from stealing money from her to sexually assaulting and degrading her. It is hard to believe that he spawned such an incredible daughter!! But Lindsey is incredible. And she is writing incredible poetry these days just like her grandma did at her age. :-)
Fall is finally here and I very much welcome the cooler days although I feel a little dread knowing the winter to come. How I wish I had raised my girls in the south!! But they are here so I am, too.
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