Thursday, November 14, 2024

Not Feeling Damned

My Jeanette is BACK. She is in the best mental place I have seen her in for 10 years.  And she really helped me the other day. 
I'm so low, this break up is killing me and one of the worst parts was feeling like I failed.  I've often felt like Jeremy was a test of my spirit and faith. I've often prayed,  "Dear God,  if this is a test I am going to fail!! Please tell me it is not"
I told Jeanette about that and she said, "Jeremy isn't,  wasn't,  a test for you! He was your punishment for really Bad things in a past life" and bells and whistles went off in my head.  Could she be right?? I didn't Fail,  but I finished my punishment????? It feels wonderful to contemplate!!!!
Ok. I need him gone.  And to hear from Jami.  
I'm gonna make it. 

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