I've taught a lot of kids to drive and Never had problems like I have with Kira. I spoke to her today about why she really needs to take drivers ed from an instructor, a stranger. She should be way ahead of where she is driving!! I'm afraid it is just our bad relationship. Mostly since Jeremy left but really there has been something Bad there for a While. It just all makes me very, very, sad.
I admire and am proud of so much in Kira!! She has good morals, really cares about Being Right, and, right or wrong, she is not afraid to take a stand fit what she believes. She works very hard at the things she wants to accomplish like how she will go over her cheer routines over and over to get them perfect. There is so much good in her!! But there is darkness and confusion in her, too. Her foul mouth makes your ears bleed and it has become her language when happy, sad, excited, or angry. Every emotion is expressed wrapped in language that would make a sailor look like the pope. I believe that comes from someplace Dark. And it is frightening that there is a similarity in all of Jami's children that I know of that is hateful, entitled, and without empathy. I think Joey might be different in this, the empathy, but Lindsey and Kira don't seem to be able to Know what animals and children want and need. Kira has shown some desire to learn how to know if an animal is happy but it has been a very long road and a lot of damaged pets to get her to that point. I KNOW this is not a good sign. Today Jeremy and I were talking about how Kira would sit and rock for HOURS for YEARS growing up. How we would point it out to DHHS and CPS and they would just blow us off. Did That turn into this?? Did not acknowledging that this was a problem turn into the problems she has now??? I would send her to Jeremy if he knew any more than me about how to help her but he says he is just lost, too.
We can't lose her!! But how to reach her????
I do hear that feeling Entitled is common in her generation. What will happen to the kids with that issue?? Will life just some day just slap them in the face with the reality that NO One "deserves " anything? If that theory only in religion?? But even if it is, religions are of tour world . Maybe some will get everything they feel entitled to and they will just feel like they were right, that they WERE owed by the world. Would that even be a Good Thing?? I don't think isee that for Kira. Maybe for some kids born into rich families who just give them everything they want all of their lives. I don't I would even want that life. It would be hollow. Devoid if the amazing feeling that you Accomplished something. How truly awful! So, then a Rude Awakening for all the other kids. Like Kira. She anyway f eels so Ripped Off coming from a family that has to work for everything. She says she is the Only Kid She Knows who has to work and buy their own car. I believe she means that. How much does that feed into her resentment?? She bemoans that
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