I'm sorry you maybe misunderstood things right from the start. When I said Brandon's name, I told you both right away, I wasn't inviting Brandon to get involved. I didn't even need for him to wake from his good dream. I just needed to say the name and remind Jeremy that Brandon was in the house so he would turn into Brandon/ Jeremy. I didn't then or ever invite you two into my relationship or breakup. It would have been real decent of you guys if you if you had left when you realized what was going on. It was none of your business and neither is my journal. If I could have "drug" you anywhere I would have drug you out of My Breakup in My House. Jami saw this on a phone I loaned her and asked if it was ok that she read it and I said Yes, but that it was the good, bad, and ugly. She. Asked. I started writing on this site during the MRSA epidemic until I was invited to write for a big MRSA campaign. My followers followed me there except a few stragglers who commented on this a few times. I think that all stopped by 2014. So this became where I worked things out and let off steam. I understand that you felt free to read it since it was still on a Public format and that you have zero respect for any of my boundaries. Maybe it's your generation? I do love you Jessalynn. I wonder if you read it all or just skimmed thru looking for your own names?? I suspect the latter. Maybe you would have seen how very much I adored Jeremy. You guys have been together a minute so I get it.
After 22 years you go thru times when you deeply love and times you hate the guts of your partner. Hopefully you make up and grow each time but sometimes it becomes unhealthy to continue. Lots of people just fear Change, like Jeremy. I've known and told him for years that this was over and he should go and be happy. He had to be forced. But we are both happier now. That's all that should matter. I can see you guys being offended if you read the journals of everyone you know. That's why we aren't supposed to do it. What's that saying? Something about eavesdroppers never hearing anything good about themselves?? I wrote a lot more about loving Jeremy than about hating him. Did you go back and read when this started on that nightmare Christmas, too??
It's therapy to write. Helps kept your head uncluttered and work things out. I don't know how you stumbled across this but it is Mine. I tell it like I see it here. You guys need to just watch the moats in your own eyes. Leave the speck in mine alone. I'm pretty sure you have better things to do.
PS: I'm not nice to people who I think are bad for my family and I want them to leave. I'm pretty damn nice to others. Give them rides to work and never ask for gas money. Lose $7,000 for helping them. I treat people in general disgustingly like that.
How do you treat people?
God, I see your smug faces saying "Really good"! The holier than thou thing, I hope you get over it. Maybe someday you will wonder if you weren't perfect in all of this. I seriously doubt it.
I am sorry for the name calling, Jessalynn. I know it was childish, I was lashing out like I do when hurt just wanting to hurt you back. Stupid, too. If throwing you out didn't hurt nothing would. Pretty sure I was still wounded the worst but, it definitely took a minute! but I got over it. For a minute I though you had, too, especially for your mother's sake! but I never thought Brandon did. He's not nearly as good an actor.
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