... survival in trauma and maybe they don't. All my life, since I was a kid, I have studied survival skills. When I was 11 I started going on "survival hikes", hiking through Texas fields looking around and noticing different things that would help me survive if I was lost or stranded. I still study these things but now, in my old age, know I myself will most likely never need to know them. I am terrified that my descendants will someday need to know such things and I won't be here to help them! At best I will get an eye roll if I try to pass anything on when I know it Could Be necessary to know some day. These days the fears are war, which had always been a fear to be ready for, and something new. The grid going down. If you think through what that could mean for communities it is absolutely terrifying if it lasts more than a few months. When there is no power or running water and deliveries Stop. Everyone assumes it will just never happen when it is always just a heart beat away!! Terrifying. I try to see my daughters trying to lead this family safely through. Jami knows the most. Jess is the most able to meet an unexpected tragedy. Jeanette knows a lot but will be in the most in danger of not surviving without medical help. I most likely won't live to see it happen. And I hope they don't either!!
Just one of the many stupid things I worry about that I can do nothing about. I garden. Hope someone will carry that on when I am gone, at least keep the idea alive in case, God forbid! they actually need to know How. I'm leaving a map of what I'm doing, hopefully not just digitally but a hand written one. Just in case.
There were a couple of deer in the neighbors backyard this evening. Kira reacted like seeing aliens! They are all so distant from Life. Scary.
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