Peek a Boos

 I see in my stats where there was a sudden spike in views around when Dave says Lindsey found and started sharing this.  Before that,  since 2009, ?, I only had some people in other countries who found this and asked to follow it to see some American life.  (Of Course I said Yes after telling them my life might not be the best depiction!) and now I still see 4 to eight views happening on each entry. I only have 5 overseas,  who don't check in every day,  and i just hope Lindsey is not one of the ones reading Every Day. I don't want her to be worried about/concerned with checking what I'm writing every day.  I just want her to get over it.  Move completely on.  Have better things to do. Are u there little girl?? If u are, I know that you were hugely offended I didn't MAKE Jami do what you wanted.  I want you to understand 2 things.  

1. If I could MAKE Jami do any thing I would have MADE her stop using drugs 40 years ago. Make her give up the meth Now. Stop seeing Mike!, shoplifting, taking other people's things,  lying, etc. And throwing her out Never Changes Anything AND she is a fricking boomerang! anyways. 

2. I KNEW you would serve No Time even if the charges stuck and, I admit, I had a small hope that you might end up with probation so u would HAVE TO stop doing drugs or risk failing a drug screen. I've already said both of those things. And I am aware that you have an image to uphold with Jake, maybe some Mannings?, and others that you don't do illegal amphetamines and being hateful to me validates your lies. But I know the truth. Not just from the way you were the last several times I saw you but since then I have talked to people who smoked meth with and got meth for you during this time. I know it definitely impacted your DHHS job's demise. I'm definitely not a prude here.  Everyone knows that Jeremy and I would get a little coke from M for concerts or big jobs like cleaning out the yellow house until his seizures and my heart condition made it a Very Bad Idea. Weekend users don't scare me. Addiction behavior Does. 

But I'm sure you have made your point to everyone that you hate me for "lying" about you. Give it a rest. Tell them you think I'm senile for believing you were using and let it go but LET IT GO.  You don't have to ever see/speak to me again.  Or you can if you want and act like I made a senile mistake and you are forgiving me. Whatever. But. Stop. This. Remember,  negative feelings/actions do more harm to the vessel that carries it than anything it is poured on. STOP  carrying this on and STOP POURING. The point is made, I'm sure.   The Mannings don't talk to me. Jake hates me.  They believe and support You. Isn't that Really what you want?? I believe IN and support you, too, you silly, silly girl. But please. I no longer check so I Don't Know, but. If you still Use. STOP. Get secret help if u have to, but I think u can Just Do It If You Haven't.